Finally!

Finally I'm taking time to write on my blog. Uhm... Don't know why I'm writing in English... It just came naturally. Not saying that I'm good in English or anything... It's just that somtimes I think in English, I've done that since seventh grade, when my vocabulary was good enough. Anyway, I'm a bit confused when it comes to Norwegian. If I'm writing only for myself, I would probably write in my accent, and I think I still would do it if my friends were reading it too. But if other people from Norway wants to read it, I should write in Bokmål or Nynorsk. I'm not fond of any of them. If I want to reach people beyond Norway, I should write in English, but I'm feel rather insecure about my English, eventhough it's my best best subject at school, except Spanish, but it's beginner-Spanish.

I think too much... That's one of the reasons I'm writing this blog... If I don't let out my thougths I will explode. Or not explode. When I was ten and until I was about fourteen, a lot of bad things happened to me. My father died, my mother almost died of a stroke, I fell in love with a guy that suddenly decided to ignore me etc. And I didn't tell anyone how I felt. I rarely cried. I didn't explode, but it caused headeache. I wasn't aware that I was grieving and was afraid that even more people in my life would leave. I went to see a homeopath/aupuncturist and she pointed out my diagnosis. After a half year with treatment, I finally had no more headaches, and she made it easier for me to move on with my life.

Anyhow... That's a little bitty tiny bit about me. I promise I won't write about daily stuff, that's happening to me. It's boring to read about what I'm wearing, what I'm eating, when I went to the bathroom. I don't want to expose myself completely to the internet. I wanna write about the occasionally amusing things that happen in my life. I sometimes might write about sad stuff. And generally philosofate on spesial topics that interest me. I will also recommend songs to listen to. Music is a great part of my life, and hopefully I will get a carreer in the music industry. Hopefully.

Another reason why I write this blog, is because I had a great year og 2008, a year that will beat all the other years of my life. In 2008 I finally got to show people that I could sing. I shocked myself too. I also got many new friends and lost some too. I participated in many things, like camps and choirs, and we had a Krinskor-tour! And I went to Thailand to visit my relatives.

But 2009 has also been great so far. I've continued being leader in camps, and still sing in choirs. And I had one of the main parts in a musical! That was awesome! I didn't want it at first, but people convinced me, and now I do not regret that I did it :) But now I'm kind of sick of it. Some people tease me of all my small mistakes or my ways of being. And I hated watching the tape after the performance. I just hate wathing myself, listening to myself. I didn't reach the high note, and it bothers the hell out of me. And I hate the way I look and the way I sound, and the way I behave. And it's reinforced when people comment me on those things. Just got the distaste of the whole musical. Will try not to think about it for a while.

I have lots to look forward to! TT for example! And then I have a little secret event I'm going to in just a few days. I'm very exited! I'll probably tell you about it later. weeeeeeee...

I'm not gonna write more for now... Kinda tired... Nightynight :)