Today is one of those days where I’m absolutely tired of everything. I feel depressed, and it’s not really often that happens. Today I had my first term test out of six. I’m stressed out too. That’s why I’m sitting here writing, doing nothing useful, when I really should write my law study paper. Arrrgh! Just found out one of my best friends does not call me a friend anymore! And it’s not my fault, but it seems like she thinks so. But I’m not the one who always has to be around my boyfriend and is not interested in what’s going on with my friends. When I occasionally call her, she does not seem interested in what I have to say, and when I ask her what’s on her mind, she is not really interested in telling me either. So I’ve just given up on contacting her, and waiting for her to contact me. And she’s angry at me for that. Kind of hurts me...
(If you’re reading this, my friend, I hope you finally understand, and I just wanna say I love you no matter what)
I’m also tired because I had a hard weekend. I went to Bergen with Sara and Ragnhild. I was trying out for the x factor. Got through to the main audition when I sang in front of two producers at the pre-cast; “Isn’t She Lovely” by Stevie Wonder. They were clapping along while I was singing, and they and got a big smile on their faces. Even though I felt comfortable around them, I couldn’t stop shaking; I think it was my unconsciousness that was scared to death. But they liked me. They said I had a beautiful voice and found me very charming. And I got a 3 out of 3 on the voice rate! But 1 out of 3 on something something, might have been my nervousness, cause when I walked out of the door they said I had to get rid of it.
So I did... The next day I waited for the audition in 13 hours!! By the half of that time I was all sick and tired of waiting. Sara said I had an amazing aura around me. Don’t know what she meant about that. Then, finally at 9 pm I sat on the “death row”, where everyone was supposed to act like nerve wrecks. None of us did though, and I took the opportunity to learn the others the sheep song. It was so fun! The highlight of the day! I didn’t get filmed then, and that kinda sucked, cause then I didn’t get the honor of the number, butbut...
And so it was my turn to sing in front of the judges... I sang the same song, as I was told to. And the Peter Peters guy said I had a cute voice, and I can’t completely remember what Mira Craig said but I think she agreed. And then it was Jan Fredrik’s turn to say something: He said he didn’t like it, just as simple as that. And it came to an end when they all said no to me. I didn’t get any good reason for it. I kind of regret that I didn’t ask them why, but I didn’t want to cause any drama, so they would release it on television. I used to like Jan Fredrik but now I think he’s an arrogant arse. I was hoping for at least some constructive criticism. After that I was rather indifferent to not going through to the next round, and I just got even more motivated to get in to the music industry, and show them that I can do it all without the x factor! Give them a caramel to taste! I hope I can do it (A) I just got to believe in myself, have more faith! :P
Well… Today is the end of the hard school week so there’s a song that always pops up in my head then. It’s called “Been a Long Day” by Rosi Golan. I can’t remember where I heard it first but when I checked her myspace page and I found even more music from her that I liked. “Come around”, “Hazy” and actually all the other songs :) Her style is very simple, mainly guitar or piano, no synths. And her voice is so comfortable and clean! I wish she could sing me to sleep every night :)
Here you have “Been a long day”:
Lyrics:
It's been a long day
And all I've got to say is make it strong
It's been a long day
And all I've got to say is I've been wrong
So take a leave of absence
Tell me you'll be gone
I don't want to see your face
It's been a long day
And I just want to hide away
It's been a long week
And all the lines come down heavy on me
It's been a long week
I'm finally feeling like it's okay to break
into a thousand pieces
no one can replace
only I can find my way
It's been long day
And I just want to hideaway
It's been a long year
And everyone around me's disappeared
It's been a long year
And all this mess around me's finally cleared
So can I have a moment just to say hello
Can you let your anger go?
It's been a long year
And I'm finally ready to be here...
Her MySpace page:
http://www.myspace.com/rosigolan
Her web page:
http://www.rosigolan.com/
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